DEAR "TALENTED 10th" STFU ALREADY, THANKS

One of the things that irritate and chaps my hide is the fraction of black folks that have went to college but use their degrees and over inflated sense of knowledge to bash ones who weren't so fortunate to do the same over the head with their education, titles, and inflated self importance. Look I get it you're extremely proud you're one of the talented 10th and that you pulled yourself up by your bootstraps and no one made you but yourself and yada yada yada. That is wonderful but just because you have a piece of paper that states you went to someones college/university for X amount of years doesn't really mean shit in the grand scheme of things. I'm not saying that education is not important quite the opposite knowledge is power but the shitty ass "I'm greater than you attitude" that comes with it needs to be put on a shelf some where.

In my opinion you catch more flies with honey, not vinegar if you are constantly lamenting the fact that you hate every movie that Tyler Perry makes but you love watching Martin you're a hypocrite Martin made money by playing multiple characters two of whom where women so GTFOH with that backwards ass logic. If you went to see Norbit and laughed at every part of that movie again you are a hypocrite and you really need to stop. Where is it written that black people can only move in one lane? Why is it every time something comes out that is classified as "urban" then the black intelligentsia want to protest and march in the streets? Why is it we even have to have this conversation repeatedly? If you don't like something then damnit don't spend your money on it. Just like if there was a movie that came out about some upwardly mobile stick in their asses black people who go to Martha's Vineyard and jet set around the world while looking down on the uneducated masses I wouldn't spend my money to see that because that doesn't interest me at all.

Why is it that white people can make just bullshit movies and no one says a thing. Movies that don't even have a point or make a great deal of sense but many will flock in droves to see it even the black intelligentsia will see the movies and just be in rapture over the crap lauding it as the funniest thing they have ever seen this year, and some of that shit is just awful, retarded and not funny at all. You don't see the Harvard educated white folks protesting the stupid movies their counterparts make, you don't see them blinking an eye nor wasting time speaking on it they roll with the punches and just go with the flow. They don't spend hours and expound massive amounts of energy complaining about dumb movies that their fellow brethren have made it doesn't turn into a big discussion about the merit of film making and the characters used to get a point across.

So why is it that black "urban" literature "urban" movies and "urban" television gets bashed to death by the black intelligentsia? if you don't like it don't support it, further more what are you doing to combat it and change it besides shitting all over it and whining about it? Not everyone sees things in the same way it takes diverse avenues sometimes to get a point across. Besides no one likes to be talked down too nor addressed as if they are children. Everyone has their own perceptions so why bash someone else who is trying to make a living just because you don't agree with it doesn't mean it is not a worthy contribution to the world. You have to have rain in order to appreciate sunshine right? So stop bashing things you don't like use that energy in a constructive manner why not help those you look down upon because not everyone has a set of bootstraps some don't even have boots! Read more...

LEGION, MY THOUGHTS

So I saw the movie Legion and these are my thoughts on it.

First and foremost its not a horror movie unless you think apocalyptic killer angels sent from heaven to exterminate the human population is horror then yea feel free to call it that. This movie is one of those movies that shows you the juiciest bits in the trailers the "scare drama" to get the butts in the seats but really this movie is one to make you ponder mans existence and just what the hell we are doing in this day and age and with out time here on earth. I call it a big ole wake the hell up P.S.A someone in Hollyweird is trying to spread the gospel one movie at a time. I don't have a problem with it as with everything you aren't forced to see this movie but don't go looking for a scare feast because this movie is not that. Of course Tyrese and Charles S Dutton don't make it out alive but that is not a shocker now is it!



The most memorable line from the movie for me is when the Archangel Michale tell's Gabriel, "I am giving HIM what he needs, and you are giving HIM what he asked for." I paraphrased the line of course but that line for some reason just stuck with me. I don't have any strong feelings about this movie most likely I will get it on DVD and watch it again and just really absorb what it is the movie is truly trying to convey but thats what I do with everything. Anywho I can't make a recommendation about this movie if you feel compelled to see it listen to your inner voice the movie is calling you for a reason other than that...

That's it, that's all I got for you enjoy your weekend and don't cupcake too tough in this rain remember things ALWAYS look different in the sunlight!

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GET BACK BLACK; SNOW BUNNIES IS WHERE ITS AT

Black men and their snow bunnies still irk the fuck out of me I don't think it would be such an issue if it wasn't constantly being thrown in black women faces that black men have moved on and they are no longer wanting us we got the fucking memo bitches thanks. The black men that go out of their way to date white women proudly squire these women around town, spend massive amounts of money on them, gladly procreate with these women, all the while grinning and showing all their pearly whites because they have finally in their minds acquired the ultimate prize a snow bunny.

In America when you get a bonafide snow bunny on your arm then it means one or two things you paid as hell or your dick is big as a toddlers arm. I don't care how you want to paint the picture nor how you want to dress it up and make it seem like its anything besides what it is. If it wasn't such a big deal to still get with a white woman then black men wouldn't be so amped to do the shit. They know it brings them attention and notoriety, sometimes even status and privilege if they get the right white woman. Sometimes she can even be trailer trash and they will just be happy to be with her because she is white! Even though it is done more in this day and age it is still that "when I reach that monetary mountain top I am going to plant my black flag in between the white cakes of some wheffah and then I am going to strut around town with her and flaunt her in black women faces because she is a trophy. Proof that your bank account is large and in charge and therefore you can afford a bonafide snow bunny in your bed." A snow bunny is the ultimate status symbol letting others around you know you have enough money in the back to keep a white woman with you.

I'm past the emotion of sadness, but there is still anger I also think the shit is ultra lame and if a black man wants to ditch black women altogether and go after his trophy snow bunny then so be it but please when the shit hits the fan and the bottom drops out in your life and your snow bunny hits the road don't come back to a black woman crying on her shoulder trying to get some solace just find you another snow bunny and keep it pushing and please don't even attempt to make eye contact on the streets while walking with your snow bunnies, don't attempt to say "what's up sista" don't even go out of your way to acknowledge me because I won't even see you. Just like you don't see me and its not malice its survival. I don't expect for a black man to sympathize with me or even understand what I write. Because to them coochie is coochie even if it is housed in a vanilla casing, and as always save that we are the world shit for someone else. If we weren't meant to see color or be different then we would have all come here looking the same way with the same pigment, features, and genetics. I don't subscribe to the melting pot theory I don't want to be melted down, meshed and spliced into something else that shit is bogus.









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RANDOM THOUGHTS

A new president...A beautiful black family in office...people keep saying be the change you want to see in the world...there should be a blueprint or some form of footsteps to follow...why do the dumbest people think that they are outsmarting everyone else in the world...just because you are a hook or by crook individual does not make it right...the world does not revolve around the things that have personally happened to you...it would be nice if it did but it doesn't believe me I know this as a fact...why can my mother gleam money out of the air but she can't manage it well...why she keep talking divorce but she still here...I want to go back to school badly but money IS a object, my stumbling block...grants loans scholarships...schools are now harder to get into and the money is hard to come by...Does Jesus even hear me when I pray...I am so tired mentally and emotionally it manifest itself physically sometimes... HE wasn't even worth 20 minutes but he got under my skin never again, if he was on fire I wouldn't even piss on him...will my family ever be alright...will change happen for me...what am I not doing in the right way...Blessings are few and far between....I.am.an.Island.of.1. Read more...

LET'S JUST GO HALF ON A BABY

Mary and Joseph, Martin Luther King Jr. and Coretta Scott King, Malcolm X and Betty Shabazz. These are examples of extraordinary people who changed the face of history. I point these people out specifically to say you don't know whom you are giving birth to. Now these people were exceptions to the rule not every child is going to turn out to be extraordinary. Most will be doing good just being productive and happy adults. I write this post because it seems like everyone around me has a child, some have multiple. It never seemed so pronounced as of late, I guess because I am older and most by my age are on baby three while I have yet to even get started or plan for baby one. I don't know if others who don't have children but would like to have some maybe begin to think like this?

You don't know when you lay down with a person and combine genes and DNA without respect of life or forethought whom you will bring forth out of your womb. It blows my mind like a breeze from the Santa Ana's how people give no forethought no serious planning into the making of another human being that will be brought forth upon this planet. It is a serious undertaking being a parent, nurturing a child, caring for that child's well being, and upbringing. Now a day's every celeb with a working reproductive system is pushing out a child and giving these children God awful names, and then pushing them off on nannies to raise. They are scooping children up left and right from continents like they are picking up exotic purses. Caring not for the child's cultural identity, upbringing nor heritage. What happens when these children begin to grow up and see faces like theirs but they can't and won't know how to relate to these people of same origin, but I digress...

Like I said it blows my mind how people are arrogant and so egotistical and clumsy when it comes to procreation I wonder what would have happened if God had decided to slap man together as clumsily as humans procreate!!! I know I wanted at least one child in my lifetime but as I think about it, and examine my motives for it I really don't have a concrete clear cut reason as to why I want a child. It's purely emotional and like we all should be aware of emotions change daily and on a whim. The strongest urges in human nature are to re-create, and self perseverance and having a child is a form of self preservation. You want your essence to live on in this world, you want to mark the planet, and having children is one of the greatest markers there is. Having a child is purely selfish and is taken way to lightly in this society.

There is a rule in society that states that Fucked up people, do fucked up things, IE:hurt people, hurt other people. Some of these same people are mothers and fathers... so then what happens to the child of a hurt/fucked up person? Since the hurt/fucked up person is more times egocentric than not, you can imagine the types of hell they inflict on their children. They give birth to children so that they can use them as emotional, mental, and physical punching bags. Inflicting the wounds that were inflicted on them as children. Making a whole other set of hurt/fucked up people. Some cycles never end because people don't know how to end them... so I guess my thought process today is how do you know you are supposed to have children? Did you do it because it was a selfish want that you catered to, was it a careless chance of sex roulette that you lost, or did you plan your child down to the choosing of the partner?

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NOT EASILY BROKEN

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I went to see the movie not easily broken and I must say it was a nice breeze of a different wind. I absolutely loved the movie. We as black women have a tendency to be too strong sometimes. To the point where we emasculate the men in our lives, we can be steamrollers and its just not right nor is it healthy. Everything has a balance if you upset the balance of a thing then it gets overturned and off course. I believe that this society is unbalanced and vastly off course. Whole communities are being eaten away because said community is off balance.

I am a lover and supporter/downer hater of black men. The contradiction because of the things they do and continue to do but at the same time I still see and respond daily to the beauty, wonderfulness and powerfulness that they still possess but they don't believe in enough is still there shining through. Like I told one black man this past weekend I am tired of fighting y'all I just want to lay my sword down and relax in your company and in your embrace. Why do I have to do battle with you when I simply want to love, be in love, and embraced by you?

Why can't we as black men and women come to the table and foster discussion, and heal some of the hurts we have inflicted on each other for far too long? Why can't we see the hurt and damage inflicted on each other as wounds and battle scars not badges of honor and coat of arms. I advise everyone not just couples to go see this movie or pick the book up and read it. It's time to heal the divide not widen it! The future needs it, our communities need it, and WE as a people need it especially! Read more...

A FEEL GOOD POST

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My favorite e-sisterMS. DULCE the high priestess of healing and nurturing(no really seriously she is) said I should do a lovely dovey-ish nice post and I'm thinking sure why not it's almost the end of this year so I can accommodate Ms. Dulce. so Dulce here we go all the love/niceness you can handle.

First and foremost I love my niece she turned 1 years old this month and she is so wonderful and extraordinary I hope she grows up to be whatever her mind, and heart can grasp.

I love my younger siblings even if they work my nerves each of them are talented, strong, precious, gifted and wonderful in their own right. I know I give them a lot of shit at times but I do it because the world is tough and I know that lesson better than anyone but I love them and will go hard for them no matter what.

The people that follow this blog and the readers that read here by chance and on purpose I appreciate you most of all its an exciting thing to have someone wanting to read the things that you write and caring enough to keep coming back that is a huge thing so humbly I say thank you.

Creativity is a beautiful thing if you have an imagination and you are creativity inclined that is a wonderful thing in of itself, so always think outside of the box! No need to be boxed in when you have creativity and imagination!

Love is a perfume, and it smells great...infatuation is a cheap knock off but it will get the job done until it either wears off or makes it to love, and lust is like a greasy burger all fat, taste good, but you will always regret it later! So find all the love your heart can hold, it's so worth it!

I feel grateful for life, and life's lessons its like battle strips I earned them all and it has shaped me into the person I am today and I have got to say I like me, even if some of you don't!

Coming soon will be a nasty sexalicious gutter butt just raunchy post so if you are easily shocked might not want to read it but I said I was going to do one for the end of the year and I don't want to go back on my word I want to push my limits and stretch my imagination so look out for that post coming soon!

Well Ms. Dulce I hope this satisfied your love post quota lol.

P.S. Oh the joy that is HIM...way too old to be feeling like this but what a rush, makes my skin tingle, my scalp prickle, and my nerves stand on edge, ugh I said I would stop crushing but I can't help myself, so here we go again. Trying not to feel like this but I can't help myself...if he calls me baby one more time...

Anywho we are going into a new year, a new president, a new first-lady and family, we are heading into the future and I am excited a new year means new possibilities and new excitements, can you feel it people...excitement is a wonderful thing be possibility!

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BECAUSE U ASKED ME 2

Dear S.

Long time no talk with you but you decided to find me again so welcome back lets us see where we end up the 2nd time around. You're a sweet guy I sense that, I also sense a little bit of sadness in you. I think its noble you want to change the world and uplift black folks, but your one man. Your heart is big and even though your back is strong and your shoulders broad they aren't strong enough for the task you want to undertake. I love your superhero syndrome but what about just being there for that one special person? I think at the end of the day...you will find what your looking for. Maybe you came back around so I could point you in the right direction...maybe you came to help me out maybe we will be each others compass... maybe this is a second chance for redemption, or maybe just a nice way to clean up an old mess.

I really don't know the reason you asked me to write a post about you...maybe you just wanted to feel a little important...maybe you just wanted some spotlight to shine down on you if just for a fleeting moment, or maybe you wanted to be immortalized on the internet...like I said I don't know your motivation but I'm trying. I do appreciate the talks we have even if it's just words filling up empty hours that don't amount to much. It's almost like I reached out for you, or you heard me in your dreams...yea as crazy as that seems. I like how you try and give me sweet sentiments even though I bust you every time when you try and write out a mack line, it's still sweet in an underhanded way. I will always remember when I asked you what you were thinking about and you said my happiness as if you were responsible for it. That put a smile on my face even if it was just a fleeting sentiment.

Even if you are gossamer and I called you up with my spirit I appreciate the talks we had in this last month of this year. I appreciate you appreciating my smile, and I love how you love your family even before yourself. A beautiful fault to have, I know this probably isn't what you had in mind but...this is what came out. I hope it put a smile on your face and I hope it made your day.

Sincerely ME.


P.S. Remember when you made that statement and I said "Right." What I wanted to say was if you were sincere, if you were for real, if you meant it with all your heart...then I hope it happens.

P.S.S if you make the mistake of doing something so jacked up that I have to retract this post you will regret it! Don't take the song literally it just went with the title.

This quote made me think of you, look how it found me like you did again...strange.
Only a life lived in the service to others is worth living." ~ Albert Einstein

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WE STILL ON THE GREEN PILL

So you think because you cut your cellphone off that big brother can't eavesdrop on you, WRONG! Check it out:

The government has had its hands in everything since co-intel-pro we don't really live in a democracy we live in a republic type government, we get enough rope to hang ourselves with and then the government steps in and reigns the people back in. If the government was really ran by the people then there would be no need for the senate nor the house of representatives. The government just keeps extending its reach and taking the little "liberties" it extended to appease the masses. As long as we keep our creature comforts no one is the wiser until it's directly in your backyard but then by that time its too late. The matrix we live in is alive and well! Read more...

MEN ADORE, CRAVE, WORSHIP CRAZY WOMEN

Evidence One: Jimmy Cozier a whole song dedicated to the love of his crazy ass girlfriend.



Evidence Two:

Evidence Three:

When the question was asked on TWITTER Why are men attracted to crazy women I got a variety of responses.

What the fellows on the twit line had to say:

HughEMC

well sex iz addictive as u know it's great 2 make luv 2 a women who goes there with u..and drama is exciting even when not wanted

RULLET

I THINK CRAZY WOMEN ARE GOOD THEY KEEP THINGS INTERESTING AND KEEP THINGS ON TMZ

TCJFResh

crazy women.... are the devil. period

crew54

when in a relationship with someone you get "more" of that crazy shit all the time, so it just looks like their plain nuts

zillz

oh yeah i am attracted to crazy women but then again i think that most wom...err nvrmnd* throws grapplin hook swings like batman*

From men in my immediate family, and from what I have observed with friends and associates and seen even in the media (lefteye r.i.p) it seems like the more extreme the women is the more she gets. Most men love crazy controlling women, ones who flip out, get buckwild, cuss you out, brick your car, bleach your clothes. Some women even go so far extreme that they beat themselves up and say you did it, pretend that they're pregnant to get a ninja to stay when they either are not pregnant or they are but it's do-dirt's baby and not yours, but that little nugget of info is left out until years later.

While nice calm non-drama having, manage-to-keep-crazy at bay women get ignored and overlooked. Is it truly the sex? The unpredictability of a crazy woman's nature that turns a man on? Is it the drama filled relationships the constant instability that give men a rush? It's all of the above I'm assuming the thrill of it all the constant emotional roller coaster, plus throw in if she has any substance abuse problems, the uninhibited sex, the devil may care attitude the living on the edge of your seat mentality. Men eat it up with three spoons while some may get tired of it and move on to real relationships others marry the dag on chick and then wonder why they never have peace in their house with their spouses. Plus the more aesthetically pleasing a woman is the more a man will put up with from her! In the land of mandom I'm sure it makes perfect sense but I'm sure I will never fully understand it, or maybe it's the fact that I don't want to understand it. If you chasing crazy and it's exciting to you and you like it then don't complain when crazy turns into psycho and now you hiding out and watching over your shoulder getting nervous when your burglar alarm gets to ringing!

I know I didn't change anything with this post wasn't a life changing post but what I do want to tell the men out there in the world with the current climate of economy instability that we are in, it's better to tread lightly versus waking up in an alley worked over by goons from a crazy chick! Or getting drugged and robbed while you are handcuffed to your bed or the drain pipe. Crazy isn't worth your life, and it's better to get out in the beginning when you see those red flags instead in the end when she has busted your windows, slashed your tires, called and came up to your job, called your boys all up, sat outside your house... is that drama really that enticing?!?!? Even as I type this I know some man out there in the world is saying, "hell yeah it is!"

Evidence Four: Avant, now his chick cheated but because he broke up with her she went through all that just to get some payback?!?!? That crazy was there from the gate he just ain't seen it cause she was a freak!
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DEAR OPRAH, WELCOME BACK ...

Dear lady O,



First and foremost welcome back to team chunk, while you were gone we missed you. 2ndly since you are the voice for the people please tell them again for the slow witted that dieting while a cute way to drive yourself completely insane never works. It is in fact a slow form of torture just an unhealthy way to over obsess over your body.

Since sense is not common let me share a few tidbits with you as far as nutrition goes, it's the calories you consume, minus your output and when you add into the equation a under active thyroid gland that equals a hard row to hoe. Diets never work unless you plan to eat like that solely for life. With anything in life its about moderation, but since the diet industry is a billion dollar industry no one will listen to reason and the general public would much rather read the labels on boxes, measure all its food, starve yourself, take pills that promise to shrink your waist line, buy ab machines that promise to give you a 9 pack, or buy tapes with perky instructors telling us how high to kick that knee. Meanwhile American's get fatter, the get sadder, and the diet weight loss establishment get's richer. When there is no real solution and just a lot of gimmicks, helped with a healthy dose of shame, and unrealistic aspirations given to the masses you get a yo-yo effect, because if all these diets, pills, exercises, gyms, solutions worked wouldn't we all be a one sized world?



Lady O I applaud your candor at sharing your weight with the world because you didn't have too and I don't think personally its anyone's damn business what dress size you wear. I however would not have went on television and told them a specific number, I simply would have said that I have gained some weight due to the holidays and winter months and appealed to all the other non-beyonce regular women in the world who have done the same and then I would have started January with a new outlook a cute workout wardrobe and a fun way to workout while looking cute.

Also since you are back on team chunk for at least a little while this is your time to tell these designers to get their team chunk design on, stop hating on bigger women. And have no fear if you want to be stylish simply call Monique she can find you a hot couture big girl gown in a minute. She is the queen of pretty plus sized fashion and there are plenty places that cater to plus sized women with elegant affordable dresses not the ugly tents of yesteryear that no one wanted to wear. I know you were living the "skinny" dream and you thought your team chunk days were over but Lady O fear not this does not mean your life is less meaningful nor over it just means there is more again for you to love.



This is also the perfect time to tell the world that in order to truly have a healthy relationship with ones self you have to love the skin your in no matter if it's a size -0 or if its a size 20 and beyond. Stop listening to the negative people, the doomsayers, the so called taste makers and tune into yourself. There will be plenty of people telling you how bad you have done, how ashamed you should be, and giving you all kinds of bad body get skinny quick advice, and please Lady O whatever you do please do not go on the crazy broads who design bad clothes lemonade diet. I can only hope that you might goggle yourself often and that this open letter to you might come up but if not I wrote this with you in mind.

Signed a member of team chuck, who still thinks you look fab even if the world is telling you otherwise.




P.S. It seems like in this society there isn't a balance there are young girls killing themselves to look skeletal the newest craze to hit youtube is called thinspiration videos full of anorexia starved young women who think food is there enemy. Dear Lady O if there was ever a time to try and crusade and save the world it would be now. In case a person comes across this particular blog, the thinspiration craze is unhealthy! Read more...

HINDSIGHT IS THE BITCH THAT IS MARRIED TO LIFE

I feel like after a certain age certain things you just should know better, when you are in your twenties then sure it's that between time from teenager to real adult so go ahead trial and error your butt off, but once you get to that 30 mark you should know better, and do enough in your twenties to have fun but you gotta keep your eye on the prize because after 29 there are no do overs. Shit is what it is! You should have spent your twenties discovering what path you wished to take in life and setting your eyes upon the future that's what your twenties are for. By the time your 30th birthday comes around you should be ready to be a full adult, putting behind you all hood rat, ghetto mentalities, establishing your career, or business, setting sights on getting your first house and hopefully if your blessed at least engaged. Ideally that is the way it should go but see to me that IS MY IDEAL on how it should work the fucked up part is hindsight is a bitch! I went through my twenties directionless just floundering, in my youth I wasn’t so wise I didn’t see things clearly like I should have. I was distracted and I don’t know what the hell I was thinking. Now at 30 I have all of these hindsight but now it’s like too little too late. My life is all fucked off and it just doesn’t seem to be getting any better.

My Madre for one doesn't think that I am hard enough on myself, simply because I don't give her the pleasure of beating up on myself in front of her. I stay in my room a lot behind a closed door and unless you are inside my psyche you can't know how I perceive myself. I spend a lot of time in thought, agonizing, reflecting, looking at different angles as to how I am going to change my life, take it in a different direction, pick the pieces up. No one but I am concerned with myself. But I guess since I hold everyone else up to my same standards I am considered being judgmental. When I don't understand someone’s life decisions and I can't empathize with someone because they had all these tools at their disposal but they choose not to use them I can't feel sorry for them I am then called heartless, cruel, even said to have a black heart. When someone who doesn't have messed up credit has an able body, an able mind, and even a set of employment skills but they won't get a job, they refuse to find employment BUT want everyone to bend over backwards and help them I'm supposed to have symptom for someone like that?

it’s funny how this one person on my twit line told me I should get a part time job I was like well shit why didn’t I think of that (insert extreme sarcasm) I’ve applied for jobs big and small, state, federal, government, even a company I got fired from same parent company different branch. I keep taking test after test, and either getting wait listed, or just plain out refused the job. I’ve applied out of state, in state, big small, part time full time, my resume is constantly in rotation, over flooded on job board sites if someone sends me info about a job then I get on it. I want to work! Yes I applied for seasonal positions, walking the local mall, even going down to la and putting out feelers out there. It’s triple hard when you don’t have transportation, no transportation money, and no way to get money. In my world since I don’t have kids its either get a job or go without.

God it’s so easy for people just to say to me well get a job like I don’t want one, like I haven’t been looking, like I wasn’t looking when I had a part time job, like I wasn’t trying to go back to school, but no money can’t pay fees, can’t buy books, what about financial aid; just pays for my classes still have to come up with the admission fees, and then again there is the transportation issue. I have all of these people who have all of these suggestions but no real help. This other chick on my twit line told me to go apply down in Venice Beach, I don’t live anywhere near Venice Beach, she then suggested I try and be a stewardess, after that point I just sort of tuned her out. I can apply for every job under the sun but:

1. Credit checks: are a major issue, but the fucked up part is if your credit is fucked but you can’t get a job how can you fix it? Someone has yet to explain that too me. On an interview for a job this perky white lady said to me “well if you at least send them something it shows a willingness to fix it.” I just nodded my head because of course when YOU HAVE NO JOB you have no income but maybe I am speaking Turkish. In the same interview the white man said to me well we can’t hire a person in the government with bad credit because it becomes an integrity issue. You become more susceptible to bribery. You are more tempted to steal when your credit is bad.

2. Weight discrimination: my mother, my grandmother, my third cousin all of them have said well your weight is probably keeping you from getting a job also. So fat people don’t have to work? They can just sit at home and just curl up in a ball and die? I know the whole world wants fat people to just go away for feel ashamed or some shit but the majority of the world is fat, fuck get over it. If you want the whole world to be one size then they need to come up with a plan to ban all fast food, develop a pill that makes everyone the same size, and then come up with a pill to make everyone the same color fuck diversity. If we are all the same size, all the same color, then all our problems would be solved and the world would be a much better place right????? Fat discrimination is done subtly but its done everyday I am up against more mountains literally then others but I keep putting in applications I keep applying I keep on keeping on but it’s netting me no results.

All things stem from money you can’t do shit in this lifetime without fucking money. They say you shouldn’t have just one stream of income coming in I have a ZAZZLE store that I sell products from but that is extremely slow money. I might get someone that buys something like every blue moon. I also love arts in crafts but that takes money. I am always trying to figure out something that one great break through for me, that something that will turn my life around. I keep thinking and thinking I don’t know who I should pray too, or what I should do to get there, and please know that I write not for sympathy because I know everyone is going through something I write because I love it and I think its great if someone even reads what I write it would be great if someone happened upon my blog and thought that I wrote well enough to offer me a publishing deal or some sort of job working in the publishing world even if it was getting the damn executives their coffee. I wish a lot of things would happen but wishes don’t come true for people like me because I’m just an ordinary everyday run of the mill type girl and miracles and wishes don’t exist in my world. Read more...

WORLD AIDS DAY DECEMBER 1ST 2008

December 1st is officially world AIDS day and for the past three years I have been participating well at least writing a blog for this particular day. I think it is very important that women especially pay attention to whom they are allowing into their bodies. Not everybody deserves to get your goodies, I don't care how much bling he has, or how fly his ride is. It's not worth dying for, especially since it's his and not yours! Before you dive between someones sheets make sure you know more about them then their last name. There is a waiting period for every major commitment, you have to wait to get your drivers license, you have to wait to get a gun, you have to wait 9 months before giving birth why does it only take a second for jumping in the bed with a complete stranger though?

Yea I'm soap boxing you guys again but some of y'all are hardheaded and just refuse to play it safe. If your man goes to jail and he's in there for a extended amount of time, the first thing you should do when he comes out is get him tested. I know easier said than done but he was in there hopefully abstaining so it shouldn't be a big deal with him abstaining just a little while longer until you guys can get tested before you give him some welcome home yoni pie. Don't let your man's eagerness dictate your life.

Last but not least drugs, sharing needles, screwing for a high, is bad business but the ones doing it have already sold any computer in sight. I challenge all my sista's in this case all of the women in the world white, black, brown, yellow, green, pink, whatever take ownership of your bodies, take pride in yourselves, stop letting men dictate what you should do with your body INSIST on using condoms especially if you aren't ready to have a baby, and I know again easier said then done but if you are extremely fertile then PLEASE JUST ABSTAIN ALL TOGETHER, if you get the urge just masturbate you can get off, relax, have a great time, and not have to worry about the fall out afterward. Plus it helps you to know your own body, the things you like, and it makes you less cranky. Matter of fact here you go 1ST 2ND 3RD Now if you can't find a way to get yourself off after those three links then... and I don't believe I have to put up a male link right?!?!? Hit me up in comments if I do.

In this new year with all the advances of technology, with all that we know no one should be willingly subjecting themselves to sexual danger. Think before you drink if you are at a party or around people you don't know that can lead to high risk behavior. Think before you smoke weed, or pop some pills that also can lead to high risk behavior, what feels good in the moment can cause you a lifetime of sorrow. Don't be a statistic and each one teach one.

GREAT SITES IN THE FIGHT AGAINST HIV/AIDS

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STOP REGULATING MY DAMN FEELINGS THANKS!

I know that I write on a public platform for all to judge and see, and comment on. I get that but sometimes the things that are written are purely feeling based, mainly in the moment things, which causes me to reflect and write on it. With that said I understand that the people who comment have my best interest at heart but telling me that being single is great and that I have time and I shouldn't feel a certain way when I do is like telling a horse to please act like a duck and that's not even by any stretch of the imagination cool.

Everyone has different feelings, outlooks, and experiences that they draw from. I certainly don't think like the majority of the public and my opinions sometimes change depending on a situation or what I am going through at the moment. My point is it is great to offer someone your thoughts, or feelings on a matter but you have to be careful how you do that. Please stop telling people how they should feel or think for that matter based on YOUR thoughts and feelings. I'm sure I am more than guilty of it myself but as I read others responses to a person's post I can't help but get a little irritated sometimes. Offering your opinion, thoughts or feelings, in an unoffensive way is an art and many people don't have that art. Many people simply don't know how to not be offensive me included. I'm sure I have trampled on someones feelings more than I care to imagine but now that I am aware of that nasty little habit I will try and regulate that.

Stop telling me I am wrong for the way that I feel is my bottom line, step telling me that what I am going through will get better cause dammit sometimes it doesn't get better. Stop telling me that being single is the greatest thing since sliced cheese and that I should be patient and sit by my window and pray that God finally gets around to hooking me up with the man of my dreams, get real. You have to be proactive God can't do it all you have to put in your fair share of the work also. Just like he can't go to work for you while you sit at home you have to go to a job put in your time and earn that paycheck! It's ironic though that the people who tell me that being coupled up is overrated is always the people who ARE COUPLED UP! What is that, that's like telling a whore that sex is overrated while she is making big bucks from having lots of it. Come on tell me that being a part of a couple is overrated after you have broken up then I might be inclined to believe you!

Last but not least nothing in particular caused me to write this post JUST WHAT I WAS FEELING AT THIS EXACT MOMENT! Hope every one's weekend was most excellent, peace. Read more...

JUST A LITTLE BIT OF SUNSHINE

I know we are in horrible times economically, job wise, world wise, political wise and it is so easy to get overwhelmed and dwell on all the bad and overlook the little bright spot of good that is there but tiny so here is a little bit of brightness.

What is Love?

Slow down for three minutes to read this. It is so worth it. Touching words from the mouth of babes.

What does Love mean?

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?"

The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined See what you think:

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"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore.
So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."
Rebecca- age 8

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"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.

You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."
Billy - age 4

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"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."
Karl - age 5

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"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."

Chrissy - age 6

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"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired"
Terri - age 4

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"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
Danny - age 7

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"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more.

My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss"

Emily - age 8

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"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."
Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

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"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,"
Nikka - age 6
(we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)

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"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
Noelle - age 7

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"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
Tommy - age 6

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"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling.
He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."
Cindy - age 8

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"My mommy loves me more than anybody
You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."
Clare - age 6

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"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."
Elaine-age 5

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"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."
Chris - age 7

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"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."

Mary Ann - age 4

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"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."
Lauren - age 4

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"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." (what an image)
Karen - age 7

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"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."
Mark - age 6

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"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."
Jessica - age 8

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And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge.
The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child.

The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife.
Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.
When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said,

"Nothing, I just helped him cry"

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WHAT SAVES YOU????

There are supposed to be certain things in this world that save you for instance Family, Love, Friends, Money, children and Friends/Family with money. It’s the very principle that fairy tales are founded on. Cinderella was saved by her fairy godmother, and then she married a prince. Sleeping beauty was beautiful, came from a kingdom, got awaken by her prince and of course lived happily ever after. The little Mermaid gave up her voice to gain legs, but she got her voice and the prince, etc. In every movie I have ever seen there is always this one beautiful character that is a complete mess but she always manages to be saved and made better by a prince charming type character and vice verse. Or sometimes the saving grace is a small subtle type thing but it’s still a kind of saving grace none the less.

Even television is scripted like that there is always some horrible character that gets saved by the beautiful handsome popular with money savior type. Even when it’s all bad it eventually becomes all good again. I wish that were true in my case. It is so hard to stay positive when it seems like everything is all wrong and when there doesn’t seem to be any kind of solution coming forth. I know that some where along the lines I screwed up I get that, but the screw up seems to be so bad that I can’t fix it. I don’t think it is a cop out to ask for help, I don’t think that is a cop out to be “saved” sometimes people need a hand, a push, a shove, a hug, a shoulder to lean or cry on. I keep hoping that some how some where I might get blessed enough to bump into some kind of saving grace. Something that tips the balance of life back into the winning position for me and once again I can get back to being fly and fresh. Anyway enough about me what are some of the things that have/do save you on a regular basis? Read more...