WHAT'S YOUR DEAL BREAKER???

This little note was sent to me on myspace around the date of Wednesday March 14, 2007 now with that being said let me bring you into the context of when and how this note came about. This little note was sent to me from the same guy who was the prime subject of this TRAGIC dating episode. Now you would think that me and dude would have given each other the peace sign and kept it stepping in separate directions but nope we just kept on trying to give it a go, but to no avail. He wanted me to be his boo but I was always waiting for the other shoe to drop with him, plus I refused to give him any, as a result of his frustration this note on myspace came about.

Now when you are in the midst of a heated emotional type situation nothing really gets solved, it's just anger feeding off of anger which results in an emotional tug of war which no one wins. In grand fashion I typed him up a letter, sprayed it with some perfume, got all dolled up took it over to where he was laying his head at the moment, rang the doorbell and left it in his door. I was done and like clockwork the other shoe did drop with him and again he disappeared.

He popped up on myspace again we chatted briefly and like clockwork he disappeared again. See he never had a stable place to lay his head, and his disappearing acts are enough to drive me up the wall. Who wants that kind of instability when you are trying to build or work on a new relationship? I couldn't for the life of me figure out why he couldn't understand that and that was part of the huge reason why I never agreed to be his women. He also had this very nasty habit of cutting me off every time I was speaking, he didn't listen to what I had to say, my thoughts were almost always overruled, he basically drove me up the freaking wall. With crazy chemistry like that mixed with a habitual pull towards each other we need our freaking heads examined...

I seen him the other day on yahoo messenger. He's driving trucks now from state to state prefect life for a nomad.


SO HELP ME GOD!
YOU ARE A WORK OF ART!
YOUR SPOILED!
I DON'T KNOW IF YA' X MAN DID YOU LIKE THAT
OR YOUR MOTHER AND FATHER DID YOU LIKE THAT BUT YOU ARE SPOILED. YES I LIKE YOU AND ALL BUT YOU CAN'T JUST LOOK FOR ME TO GIVE MY ALL WHEN YOU JUST SIT THERE. THAT IS JUST WRONG!
YOU HAVE THIS THING ABOUT YOU THAT IS CRAZY.
AND YOU KNOW WHAT, I DON'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT.
I HAD BROKEN MY BACK OVER ALL THIS.
YOU DON'T EVEN SEE THE THINGS I HAD TO GET DONE. IN ORDER TO GET WHERE I'M AT. YOU JUST SEE THE OUT SIDE OF THINGS AND TAKE IT FOR WHAT ITS' WORTH.
THATS NOT FARE TO ME. ALL YOUR DOING IS PUSHING ME AWAY. FOR WHAT " ONLY BECAUSE I WAS BROKE BACK IN THE DAY, SO I HAD THE BALLS TO TELL YOU I'LL TALK TO YOU WHEN I GET ON MY FEET". DO YOU EVEN NOTICE THE THINGS YOU SAY TO ME.
I REALLY CAN'T SEE HOW YOU LIKE ME!
YOU DON'T EVEN SHOW ME
WHAT ! JUST BECAUSE YOU SHOWED UP AT MY HOUSE .
DO I HAVE TO PAY YOU FOR YOUR TIME?
YOU KNOW YOU GOT ME FU(K UP!
THINKING I'M A SUCK'A
THE WAY YOU TALK TO ME
AND YOU KNOW I DON'T GET DOWN LIKE THAT .
IT'S TIME FOR YOU TO BE A WOMAN
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((NOW)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
YOU STILL ACTING LIKE A LIL GIRL
YOU TALK A GOOD GAME
I'LL GIVE YOU THAT BUT UNDER ALL THAT,
YOUR NOTHING BUT A LIL GIRL!
JUST LOOK AT IT YOU HAVE THAT IT TAKE
YOU JUST DON'T USE IT
YOU GET YOUR NAILS..FEET DONE
BUT YOU DON'T ROCK DRESSES(?)
YOU HAVE A NICE CAR, BUT YOU GO TO GAY CLUBS(?)
DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHO YOU ARE(?)
YOU THINK YOUR SLICK, YOU TRY TO HIDE EVEN BEHIND YOUR SELF. AND YOU KNOW YOUR WRONG FOR TRY'N TO MAKE ME FEEL BAD
BECAUSE I DIDN'T HAVE ANY MONEY
YOU FORGOT THE THINGS YOU SAID TO ME
I USED EACH AND EVERY RED CENT I HAD TO MY NAME ON THAT YELLOW BASKET I GOT FOR YOU ON V-DAY
IT WASN'T MUCH BUT YOU LOOK AT AS IF IT WAS CHEAP.
THAT HURT ME SO BAD!
BUT I OVER LOOKED IT AND WHEN ON TRY'N TO MAKE YOU HAPPY SO WE WENT OUT TO THE GARDENS,
FOR DINNER AND A MOVIE. YOU LOOK AT ME AS IF I HAD MILLIONS ON ME. IF ANY TIME IN MY LIFE I EVER FELT SO LOW TO THE GROUND,
THAT WAS IT. I NEVER KNEW ANY ONE THAT TREAT ME SO LOW. SEE A GOOD WOMAN WOULD LIFT YOU UP IN THE BAD TIMES
BECAUSE SHE KNOWS,SHES GOING TO HAVE SOME HER SELF.
A GOOD WOMAN WILL STAND BY HER MAN NO MATTER WHAT! SO ASK YOUR SELF ARE YOU A GOOD WOMAN?
BECAUSE I DON'T SEE ONE.
I'M NOT GOING TO CATER TO YOUR NEEDS.
YOUR NOT FIT FOR THAT!
YOU KNOW YOU FU(K UP NOW
I'LL JUST TALK TO YOU WHEN YOU GET UP BECAUSE YOU DONE DID IT NOW
I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU ARE DOING ME LIKE THAT.
YOU MUST THINK THAT I'M DUMB!
YOU HAVE KNOW IDEA!
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