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Tuesday, January 20, 2009
RANDOM THOUGHTS
A new president...A beautiful black family in office...people keep saying be the change you want to see in the world...there should be a blueprint or some form of footsteps to follow...why do the dumbest people think that they are outsmarting everyone else in the world...just because you are a hook or by crook individual does not make it right...the world does not revolve around the things that have personally happened to you...it would be nice if it did but it doesn't believe me I know this as a fact...why can my mother gleam money out of the air but she can't manage it well...why she keep talking divorce but she still here...I want to go back to school badly but money IS a object, my stumbling block...grants loans scholarships...schools are now harder to get into and the money is hard to come by...Does Jesus even hear me when I pray...I am so tired mentally and emotionally it manifest itself physically sometimes... HE wasn't even worth 20 minutes but he got under my skin never again, if he was on fire I wouldn't even piss on him...will my family ever be alright...will change happen for me...what am I not doing in the right way...Blessings are few and far between....I.am.an.Island.of.1.
Damn.
ReplyDeletehey girl how are you. i know its been a long time. i am working evening shift and going to school during the day so my energy and time has been strained.
ReplyDeletenevertheless i am just letting you know that i am still here my e-sista. dont take this the wrong way but i enjoy reading this post. i have not read a stream of consciousness peace in a long time.
i understand that you believe you are in a rough stop right now. we are all human and we all have those doubts. i do believe me, we all do. one thing that has really helped me as i have continued to mature and grow is that i am learning to find peace, satisfaction, faith and confidence within myself and my situation.
external things and people are no longer the crutch on which i stand. learning to be at peace with myself has brought me so far. i wish the same thing for you as well.
@Dulce I think you and appreciate that as always.
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